The pace to greatness is slow

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, Rest if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns, As every one of us sometimes learns, And many a failure turns about, When he might have won had he stuck it out. Don't give up though the pace seems slow--You may succeed with another blow, Success is failure turned inside out--The silver tint of the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems so far; So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--It's when things seem worst that you must not quit."

-Unknown

I have been really frustrated lately. I am doing everything I am supposed to in relation to my weight loss...and yet I am not loosing anything. My friends that I am working worth are doing great and I am so so proud of all their hard work. I am just so angry that my body does not want to give up the weight I so carelessly put on. I am feeling better, that is a fact. I hate working out, but each time I push myself just that much harder and I feel amazing afterwards....well okay not RIGHT afterwards but give me time to relax after working out and I feel pretty good. My eating habits are slowly getting better. Still a struggle for me, but I am so much better than I was a couple of weeks ago.

So why am I not seeing ANY results. I look in the mirror and nothing. My tape measure stays stubbornly on the same numbers and my favorite jeans are still slightly to snug in all the wrong places. I still get an upset tummy when I see pictures of myself. I just want to curl up on my couch with a piece of cake and a glass of chocolate milk. Of course I don't...mostly because I don't keep either on hand, but that sure doesn't stop the desire to have it!

I know that weight loss is not a sprint it is so much like the marathon I am training for. You have set a steady pace and just keep plugging along and eventually you will get where you are going. But even in a marathon the scenery changes as you struggle towards the finish line....and dang it all if I wouldn't like the scenery to change! Even a little change....please?

I am really grateful for all the support I have. My friends and my Aunt are invaluable to me. I wouldn't be able to get myself up to work out everyday if it wasn't for them and their constant rah-rah cis-bam boom that their cheer every time when I complain and whine about working out or eating healthy. They are the ones who keep pulling me forward...and for that I am grateful even if I am kicking and screaming along the way.

I just hope that I start to see some change soon, because I am not sure how much I can keep up, even with the cheering, if I don't see my hard work paying off.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

-Nelson Mandela